Yesterday, I struggled for: go work or not? Honestly, after two days emotion released, I do feel tired. After considered that I want to discuss face to face to my boss, even I feel sick, I still went to work.
We talked, but it’s not a happy talked.
She still stand firm on her ground. Her attitude was not good, though, I shouldn’t expect too much. She still not concern my situation. When we talked about one thing, my tears brutst out again.
One or two weeks ago, she told me I was being black listed by our Commission coz my sick leaves! Wednesday, I went asked my ES directly, and she told me, it’s my boss want to emphasis her power of speech! LIER!!!!
I told them seperately, didn’t you know that how many night I couldn’t get sleep coz of these words?
It break my trust to my boss! For God’s sake, what kind of job we’re serving?
I told my boss, ML, I don’t need your care, but, please accept I AM A PATIENT, TOO!
What’s her response?
She said: " If I made you sad that day, I may say sorry to you. but my charater is like that, if you ask me will I still doing like that next time? I will say SURE, if next time like that, I still doing so!"
What kind of woman?
My most disappointed thing is her lie! And also the turst I to her. The other thing is, we are pastoral workers, even near ppl we can’t care, how can we care the patients? We are Catholics, if we can’t follow Jesus said to love one to another, neighbours, enimies, then, our faith is empty and lie!
I understand she’s a kind of very sturbun lady, so I try my best to fit her requirement, on a reasonable grounded. However, so much things stack together and made me down at last .
I do also understand that, it’s also difficult for her to accept a lady stand on very front trend as me to do a pastoral care service.
World always change, we need to accept new things. For me, I have the experience to stay with stubbun ppl, so I know I will change but not her.
But I still disappointed with a pasotral care worker like this! Cool, feelingless, unconcern and without love! Oh, no, she’s just sexual! I’m not her cup of tea, so I being take out from her concern list, that’s all.